I’ve never liked talking about myself, I never really thought there was much to say. Growing up, I thought that I was like every other girl. Except more often than not I was the new girl, moving from school district to school district and feeling incredibly detached and isolated.
I was born in small-town Canada and when my Mom met my stepdad, he seemed to promise security and a normal childhood upbringing, so my dad signed the custody agreement which stated that I could move away with my mother and stepfather but that I would see him once every year at least. Except I was never allowed to talk to him and between the time that I was three-fourteen I had only seen him once, birthday cards that he sent to me were thrown out and I would be told that he didn’t send anything. I grew up feeling unwanted by him and this paired with the physically, sexually and emotionally abusive home I was raised in I was completely isolated. I was left to care for my mother and stepfather’s two children every time our parents’ absence, which was very often.
By grade eight I started to get incredibly depressed and suicidal, I no longer had school because my siblings and I were being homeschooled; Which only made my isolation worse. I was at my absolute lowest, I survived via long distance phone calls with my grandmother. It was about halfway through grade eight when she offered me the chance to move back to Canada to live with her, and legally I could do this because my biological father still lived there. I took the opportunity and to this day I am forever grateful to my mother for letting this happen.
Five years later I have completed my counseling in which I have been enrolled in for about four years total, but something was missing. I still wasn’t feeling super confident in myself, which is something that i will always struggle with, but I was scrolling through my Instagram feed and I saw one of my now dear friends post about so worth loving. Immediately I was interested, one visit on the website and I was hooked. So worth loving’s message was what I needed to hear..
No matter my
I am worthy of love.
So as a gift to myself, the day of my last counseling session I ordered my first so worth loving t-shirt and tank top. I knew that SWL would be a great organization to become apart of if in any small way that I could manage but now
I feel like I’m now apart of something bigger than I could have thought possible.
I’ve never been ablt to feel so much pride in how far I’ve come, I’ve never been able to appreciate myself but now I can. I am forever grateful to SWL for enriching my life in the way they have. So worth loving has already helped me fight battles I have never thought possible…
We are not just a collective group of survivors, we are all family now.
For the first time in my life, I know im not alone. I still deal with residual PTSD symptoms and anxiety but I know now that If I ever need I always have someone there and I couldn’t be more grateful.
Love Always, Paige