Should I Fight For A Life I Might Not Want To Keep?

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It’s not everyday that an eighteen year old is told they will be dead within two years. Trying to absorb this information, I felt nothing. My chest was aching, but my mind was numb to this diagnosis. A cardiologist had just exposed the stage four monster that inhabited my body, Pulmonary Hypertension. I would be a lucky survivor to say I got through these next couple of years, full of pills, surgeries, and medical bills.

People think that when you are diagnosed with something terminal, that you automatically become a courageous fighter. You are graceful, forgiving, and at peace with your life. In reality, you’re lashing out at everyone, crying, andquestioning if you should even be fighting for a life that you might not want to keep. I had no idea that this physical fight would come with a mental one as well. For a long time, I tricked myself into believing that I, myself, was a disease and not worthy to keep going.

Finally, I started seeing things from my family’s point of view, and with friends’ help, I took my first steps into my own sort of mental rehabilitation of accepting my new life. Having a disease, or battling anything, is really a state of mind over matter. When you can mentally grasp it, your body will soon follow.

Four years later, I’ve found my way through my art, my writing, my book, my fans, and other patients who have supported me through horrendous times. Pulmonary Hypertension took so much of everything that what it did leave…it left for me to intensify. Four years: I beat my expiration date.

Physically and mentally fighting Pulmonary Hypertension, I figured out that despite my diseased lungs, I was worthy to live the life I wanted to.

That is what I have continued to do: live, and accept that I am so worth loving.

Written and loved on by Haley Lynn

I've Struggled with Depression and Anxiety

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Learning to love myself despite all my struggles and flaws has helped me to love others through their struggles and flaws.

Having struggled with depression, and still struggling with anxiety, I have come into contact with so many people who I get to share my story with. I get to be a voice of hope to people who have none because I can say,  "Hey, I’ve been there, but look where I am now.“

I get to tell people that if they keep pushing through, that they will find joy.

I get to tell people that they are worthy of life and of happiness. Because now I believe it for myself.

If you’ve overcome major struggles in your life, I just really want to challenge you to share your story. It’s a scary thing to do, but it will give you so many opportunities to love others.

Join the family by sharing how loving yourself has helped you to love others with the hashtag #loveyoulovepeople on Instagram.

Love, Mack

In order to truly embrace someone else, we have to be embraced too. Use the love for yourself to strengthen the love towards others.