Unseen Battles

In my family, a lot of my value as a woman was placed on my virginity.  When I turned 21, I was raped by a friend. Imagine my shame and feeling of worthlessness to know that I was soiled and wouldn’t be as valuable to someone someday. 

I spiraled out of control. I went to bars drinking and dating guys that were scumbags, because for those few minutes I was worth something to them, and for those few minutes I felt better because I was actually wanted. After a few attempts at failed relationships, I realized that the pattern of heartbreak stemmed from my feeling unworthy and not viewing myself as a precious individual that has value.

I have been being counseled for about 6 months and there has been a drastic change in my life and my view of myself. The past can stay in the past because I have grown from it and learned that I am worthy to be loved. That I am so much more valuable than I sometimes view myself.

This company showed up on my Pinterest feed a few weeks ago. I read about the company and read some of the stories featured on the page. It was so incredibly encouraging to see that there are others like me who fight everyday to win battles that few people see or know.  All that to say, keep fighting the good fight! You are worthy to be loved!

LAX Campus Crew Stories

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Campus Reps are in full swing with their events + hangouts! Here a few stories collected by Demitra at University of Wisconsin La-Crosse!

Sami B:

“I’ve always been the quiet one. The one that doesn’t have anything to say. But that’s not me… I am outspoken, educated, strong, and I am enough. I am enough. I am enough. It’s something I say to myself on my hard days; the days when the antidepressants don’t pump enough dopamine in my brain. The days I think I don’t think I can get out of bed, and my heart feels like it could burst. Even when the days are hard and even when I feel alone, I also feel one thing: I deserve to be loved. Love isn’t perfect and life is hard, but one thing is for certain: love is present. I have come to the understand the nothing lasts forever. Life is always changing and turning. but one thing is for certain… Love is always there. Wherever you look, you can find it. For me, I find it within my friends, professors, and the books I read. Fortunately, when you and life come to understanding that nothing ever stays the same- you can also find that is what the adventure is all about. ”

Carly J:

“I am so worth loving because I’ve been told I’m not.

I’ve been told by a society who gives me constant commands of who to be, how to act, what to wear, who to date, with the media slapping me in the face every time the TV flashes on, every time grandma tells me to stand up straighter, every time I am asked if I’m sure I want that extra cup cake, every time my friend tells me about their new fab diet I should consider trying.

But I’ve stopped listening, because I am so worth loving.

I am so worth loving because I used to believe I wasn’t.

I was fed my own flaws, I was living inside this skin that I was trained to hate, inside a  mind that wasn’t smart enough, a talent that wasn’t unique enough, a body that wasn’t nearly pretty enough, skinny enough, or tanned enough.

But I’ve created my own definition, because I am so worth loving.

I am important, I am not defined by others standards, I am strong, and I am worthy of love. ”